What's my life now ? Unemployed.. I hate to just waste time and not do anything. I'm job hunting, read a book, hit the gym and what not.. But I need to work.. I'm ready for a job.. But nothing seams to be going my way now..
Trying to go to Singapore.. isn't working out as much as I hoped it would be.. the quota is high.. Trying to get into Macau too.. Same thing.. Quota is high and what not..
As much as I don't wanna work here.. I'm not gonna force myself to work in Sg or Macau..Because honestly.. It just felt like its not my calling yet maybe ? I don't know..
I do get depressed about not being able to get a job.. I think only my Mom realized about it cause she knew I was a little emo and all, running low on cash.. She borrowed me money and said that she'll support me till I get a job and found what I wanna do.. I was in public and I literally wanna just breakdown and cry..
Cause honestly... Without my Mom I don't know how on earth I'm gonna do everything.. All she does is listen... She knew I'm gay and all.. I also know that this is going to be hard for her...
but deep down.. not being able to get a job is really really depressing.. Everyone have been asking me why I have not gotten a job yet... and my grandma told me that I shouldn't have went for my long 1 and a half month travel... (WHICH I WILL NEVER EVER REGRET)
it just kills me a little bit each time I got an email saying that I'm not offered the job or found someone better.. Then I'll be thinking if I'm not good enough...
This coming weekend, I'll be going for SIA walk in interview at kl.. I really really really want this job.. I love hospitality industry, and I love to travel.. Its the perfect job for me besides hotel.. Everyone have been telling me that I should go for a cabin crew life which I have rarely considered cause I wonder if I'm up to the standard ? I really don't know.. If I got kicked out.. I really don't know how I would feel about everything.. cause this is the job I'll die for..
plus I got a hair cut and snipped by pony tail off that I've grown since oct last year... So yea.. My konon cabin crew, presentable smart looking hair..
I miss the days when I'm travelling with my backpack buddies I met along the way.. Wake up every morning, have breakfast, drink beer. Then decide what to do for the day.. Relax, chill and laugh and have alot of fun.. I felt more alive when I'm travelling than being back here.. at least for the time being.. I'm so lost now
wish everything will work out
Justin Lim aka Kiddystick